Love Letter

So, did I satisfy my restlessness? Indeed I did. However, I did not run away from home to be alone in an undisclosed location (as lovely as that may sound). We did take a long (ish) drive to a pretty beach where I did nothing but watch my kids frolic between the water and the sand with one of their many second cousins (I come from a rather large family where first cousins can be scooped up by the buckets!).

Now I don’t normally discuss the picture I choose for each of my blogs but this particular blog is inspired by this very moment in time when I realized what I had captured.

As I looked out, a quiet moment under the umbrella prompted a picture-taking moment. I stood at the shores edge and snapped away a series of pictures of my son and his cousin jumping and splashing about. I lazily walked back and slumped into my chair removing my sunglasses to take a better look at the shots. I screeched in amazement and showed everyone I was with my incredible find.

A large heart shaped cloud was clearly visible in the sky above my children (Ms. G is a speck in the distance). I told everyone this was a love letter from God. They looked at me the way a parent looks at their child who talks about having possibly caught a glimpse of Santa Claus or the Easter Bunny. I know that look well as I see it often when my inner thoughts unexpectedly leak out of my mouth in social gatherings. ‘Oops!’ I instinctively tell myself.

Well, I know it’s a love letter from God because I have seen hearts appear seemingly out of thin air whenever I get a restless mind, or feel down, or need a little reminder that I am loved beyond this earthly plane. I know it’s still a little taboo to talk about these things so casually when having a dandy old time on the beach under the summer sun.

No one knows deep down how much I needed to see that on that particular day. I am loved despite all the messages I receive on the contrary. Sometimes even despite the negative tricks my mind plays on me. Despite all the feelings of self loathing that swirl around in my mind from time to time. Despite the internal and external bombardment, when I see an unexpected heart I know I am unconditionally loved.