If you were to ask me today what my religious affiliation is I would answer that I am officially affiliated with the Roman Catholic religion but my spiritual beliefs have evolved into a larger realm. I guess that’s the best way I know how to describe it at the moment. My beliefs are not to the exclusion of my official religion but maybe they encapsulate them in a more broader sense. I recognize that some may see it as contradictory to the Catholic teachings, but I whole heartedly believe in its positive, complementary, connection.
In university I wrote a philosophy paper on the notion that our lives are like blueprints, pre-designed for us before coming on this earth. How coincidences don’t exist, but free will does, because the choices we make allows for some room for certain paths to be taken. I wrote about my personal blueprint, and also how I could foresee certain paths for myself, but that is not to say I knew everything about my future. I was able to see certain paths for my sisters as well, for example, nudging and encouraging them towards careers that I saw very clearly for the well being of their personal development. I still didn’t understand fully what I was experiencing and comprehending while writing this university paper, believing my professor wouldn’t understand either. I actually got an A on the assignment—then I wondered that maybe my beliefs were not so far off after all.
In my 20’s I read many books on spirituality that resonated with what I had known to be true for years. Today, I have no doubt in my mind, or in my soul, that we are here on this earth to learn our lessons—pre-determined lessons that we discussed with God and agreed to before coming to earth. Lessons can be similar to others, but the paths we take and the experiences we have differ from person to person. Our ‘blueprint’ so to speak is what we have agreed to in order to help our souls evolve. Coming to earth accelerates our soul’s growth, but it is a very difficult path to take because life on earth comes with dark, treacherous experiences that can be hard on our souls.
“I simply don’t believe in coincidences. Our actions have a purpose. Our thoughts have meaning.”
Not all souls choose to come to earth in order to evolve, but many do, more than once, hence my belief in reincarnation. Reincarnation, from the outside, seems contradictory to the Roman Catholic belief that we have one life and when we die we go to heaven. All this I believe to be true, however, some souls choose to return to further their personal spiritual evolution. I have no doubt that my feelings as a little girl of having to learn to read and write again was my soul’s recognition that I’ve been on earth many times before (I mentioned in Part 1 of this blog that as a little girl I had a feeling of having been on this earth before, and how the simple task of learning to read and write in school, for example, seemed tedious and repetitive to me, even at a very young age). I also believe I’ve learned about some of my past lives through dreams and familiar life experiences. I don’t dismiss these connections anymore, but rather acknowledge and welcome them. I believe I’ve taken many forms on earth, and I have lived in many different parts of the world, and have come back to earth not only as a woman but a man as well (sounds crazy right? I know but it makes perfect sense to me). I have strong connections with specific cultures that resonate with me, from different parts of the globe! I feel a soul bond with certain other religions as well because God can take many forms for many different people around the world but the energy of God is singular. I believe you can give God many names, and many different faces, but it does not make one better or more true, because they are all but one entity.
Energy cannot be destroyed or created so when we leave this earth we simply take on a different form. For this reason, I believe loved ones that have crossed over are not far away at all. We cannot physically see them through earthly bodies because they have taken on their energy form. They communicate to us through dreams, signs, and symbols on this earth that help us understand that they are not far away. This does not negate the pain we experience when someone we love transfers over because we are human, and as humans we mourn what we cannot see, which is perfectly normal.
Jesus, and other highly evolved spiritual beings that we connect with here on earth are not imaginary or simply symbols of a specific faith. They are truly highly evolved souls (I use the term soul, spirit, energy beings interchangeably) that can guide and love us from the other side—which brings me back to the beginning of this story. I cannot address every aspect of my faith and beliefs in a five minute blog but I can tell you that my faith has come full circle. My connection to the Roman Catholic religion stands strong, but I view it maybe through a different lens. A broader sense, with less rigidity, and more acceptance that all paths lead to one higher spiritual entity. I simply don’t believe in coincidences. Our actions have a purpose. Our thoughts have meaning. Our lives while on this earth are an opportunity to help our souls evolve through our experiences. Even the most heinous experiences have lessons which in time are revealed to us. It is ok to have doubts and to question the purpose of our pain. In my darkest moments I have learned to ask my spirit guides for love, and if possible clarity. I have never been disappointed. Maybe I’m still too young to fully understand the meaning of life, but as I see it today it is to never stop learning how I can be a better person, a better mother, a better friend, a better citizen of earth during my brief time here. I’ve also made a promise to myself as a little girl, frustrated with learning to spell—again—that this was my last time on this earth. I may very well stick to that plan—a discussion I will surely have with God after I cross over…
(I took this picture near my home during
one of my walks)
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